Didnt even know that blogger started changing their layout till now lol! I have been noticing there are lots n lots of facebook friends is now oversea, maybe traveling working or studying. & ya, i kinda of envy them, afterall IWANTGOTRAVETOO.

Despite the fact that i hate growing up, i think i am forced to do so. Seeing all kind of ugly faces from different people really irk me a lot. I remember asking pig this question, whether human are borne kind or evil, i think he gave me quite a good answer. You only see people turning from good to bad, and rarely from bad to good. But i think somehow, the evil in us are hidden. Not exposed until that very moment, the selfishness, the greediness & everything.

I am not a bad person, i never plot any harm to anybody in my life. But i am not too kind too, i admit i am competitive person that sometime i hate seeing people doing better than me including that very closed one. I hate my life now cause i feel totally prison-ed from things i want to do.

Sometimes, some decisions are hard to made. Especially when it doesnt only affecting yourself, & you have to consider different sides. I am stuck in between. With different side having different reasons, i wouldnt say they are wrong, & me myself i know who is at fault. But... how to make that decision when either way you are going to get blame for. I prayed hard & keep my fingers crossed that my life will remain like it is, with everything done to be in the past, but somehow reality love slapping on my face.

i am just too lazy to check the above post for errors while i writing down whatever comes into my mind which are all in the mess, i expect no one can actually figure out what i am trying to say at all. LOL.

Alright, till then.